Wednesday, September 15, 2010

so the silence...

i cannot believe that it has been a year since i last posted... time flies when you are working all the time. i have found myself in somewhat of a wilderness, a monotony of work and familial responsibilities. that is not to demean either work or familial responsibilities, but rather that run together in great quantities time markers are somewhat blurred and the result is that looking back i don't see too many distinct features. the ones i do see look like little oases on the landscape of the past year.

the most recent would be the birth of my second son, wyatt. what a precious little guy, a reminder of the incredible capacity for love that God has placed within our hearts. just when renee and i thought that we couldn't love another as much as we love georgia and jack wyatt comes along and stretches our hearts some more. it is incredible and humbling to think of God's love for us from a parent's perspective.

another grouping are the several relationships that i have built over the past year with coworkers. i love these people intensely. kris and his sweet spirit. aurora and her fierce independence and yet surreal vulnerability. michael and his perpetual skepticism. heather and her activism. jason and his incessant searching, however misguided. i love the rawness and the realness of our conversations, so not candy coated. they capture my heart and my imagination.

and now i find myself in the midst of change. from planting in austin to looking out of town and out of state for ministry opportunities. just another in a long series of challenges from God. i like it here. i like the people. i want to stay. and yet God seems to be closing that door for now. maybe it will reopen, but for now a change.

why does it seem that i blog most when God is shaking things up? hmmm...